It looks like I might have found the answer as to why I’ve been struggling with extreme shyness (Selective Mutism), especially when I was younger (note that I don’t really “have it” anymore). Three days ago, I found out that the reason why I might be/have been struggling with SM. I have spent several years searching for the answer to this question, and it looks like I’ve finally found the answer. The reason why I might have been struggling with SM this whole time is because of a “leaky gut” and systemic inflammation, which are the result of my grain consumption. Now, I actually talked about this issue before, but this just confirms it.
Ever since I first found out about the Primal Blueprint, i’ve been finding answers to my questions about health and well-being, including finding out clues to the reason why I’ve struggled for years with a condition in which a person actually suffers in silence. It also answered other questions that I might or might not have had. Another thing that i’ve always struggled with is underperformance. I’ve been trying to find out the reason for my underperformance in everything, and why I am so slow to get anything done. Little did I know, until just three days ago, that I’ve been struggling with fatigue the whole time, another explanation why I have/had SM. Because of my leaky gut and the systemic inflammation it caused, my immune system was being compromised, meaning, it was being overworked (I have what is considered an autoimmune disorder), so my energy levels where low (and it makes sense because I didn’t exactly feel physically energized). In addition to that, I have allergies to corn and gluten, which contributed to the problem.
As a result of these low energy levels and allergic reaction(s), I underperform. Social settings become overwhelming to me (and I know it’s not supposed to be that way for me. I mean, I really want to socialize with people). The quality of my work lowers. I’m slow to get things done because my energy either runs out or its not there (even though I really, really want to do it). I have trouble focusing and concentrating on doing tasks that I want (even though the enthusiasm is there), because of my fatigue and reaction(s) to a food. I know that it is not because of my lack of ability (compared to what those nuts over at the public school district that I used to go to as a kid said)…I know that I’m capable of doing a lot, and at high levels – levels that are higher than anyone could possibly imagine.
I sometimes feel like no one else knows how it’s like to be someone who is performance and quality-oriented, yet is getting mediocre results in anything they undertake…even though they know they can do better, they certainly have the ability to go out and be on top every time, the enthusiasm is there. You’re doing the best you can, only to come up short. I feel just like Chad Reed (one of my favorite Motocross athletes) did back in 2010, when he had what was possibly the worst year of his career. He was underperforming (he’s one of the top motocrossers out there) and it turns out that the reason for that was because he had the Epstein-Barr virus (http://www.racerxonline.com/2010/07/23/a-letter-from-chad-reed). This discovery finally puts to rest all of the assumptions and allegations that I might have a mental disability (like I was told when I was in grade school – take that, school officials!). After spending lots of time reading and researching how diet affects these type of things (which began in 2009), I strongly believe that our modern diet is the root cause of my Selective Mutism and underachievement. I also believe that it is the root cause of most other mental disorders (like ADHD).
My number 1 priority right now is to get 100% healthy. I know that if I don’t take care of this issue now, I am going to underachieve in my dream career of music and design and running a business, and whatever else I desire to do in the future, and things will be running slow…and not to mention that my gut health will deteriorate further, and I will possibly develop a severe allergic reaction to corn and gluten. In addition, I’ll keep having nose and skin issues, all which will hinder my ability to go on stage and perform. I am going to follow the Primal Blueprint eating and lifestyle plan in order to achieve maximum health (and eliminate grains from my diet). I expect to my performance to improve drastically once I make the full transition. I am very excited about this and I am looking forward to the future – I know I have a very bright future ahead of me. I would like to thank Mark Sisson (the creator/author of the Primal Blueprint and the blog, Mark’s Daily Apple) for helping me make this discovery, and for his generosity in giving this type of information to people. I highly recommend his work.
Will the Primal Blueprint fix my “Selective Mutism”? Is the modern/standard American diet the root cause of my SM and energy issues? How long will it take before I see improvement? How will it be like once my health is restored and once I get back to doing my work (i.e. music)? Will my performance improve and if yes, how much? Will I finally “get things done”? I guess these questions and more will be answered once I get started…at least I’ve finally found an answer to my question (see the first paragraph), as well as a solution to fix the problem.
