Lenovo wants to make a Retro ThinkPad!

Lenovo (but more specifically, David Hill) wants to make a retro ThinkPad! This ThinkPad will have classic features in a modern design along with all the latest technolgy, which will make this a very unique ThinkPad!

In this video, In addition to announcing it, I give my opinion on the idea. I discuss what I think and how I feel about this – from my point of view. Its not going to reflect everyone’s views, so keep that in mind. This is more of a commentary than an announcement video.

David Hill’s Lenovo Blogs article (make sure to let him know your opinion on this and if you want to buy such a ThinkPad).

Article on ThinkScopes about the survey phase.

[Vlog] My package got lost in the mail! (Thanks USPS!)

Here’s a vlog were I discuss my recent bad experience with USPS. If you’ve been following my Tumblr closely as of late, then you’ll know that its about the lost package that contained my FreeToM prosthetic.

P.S. There was actually no pun intended when I came up with the title, even though it seems like it…it just happened to come out that way :D. Feel free to laugh if you want!

P.P.S. I recently decided to do YouTube full-time (so it will be my full-time job along with music from now on), so expect to see content more frequently! (I’ll do my best with the space constraints I have right now.)

I’m 25!

Well, its my birthday today. Supposedly, I’m 25 now. But the thing is that I don’t feel 25. I feel more like I’m 18. I don’t exactly look 25, I look more 18 or so. I find it hard to believe I’m 25 now.

I’ve had to get started on life much later than everyone else due to me not really knowing what to do even though I thought I did (I had the “too many gifts” dilemma, so common with people with a lot of passions. Its where you don’t really know what to do with all your passions). Plus, I’ve had to deal with a gender transition (legal & social) due to me not knowing I was born biologically male but intersex and being misassigned female at birth as a consequence (a gender which I’ve never identified with in the first place). I had to deal with confusion surrounding my sexuality for the first 21 years of my life. Additionally, I’ve had to deal with hypogonadism (Low Testosterone, Testoterone Deficiency, etc.), which lead to a reduced puberty (hence why I look very young). So I’m definitely a late-bloomer.

I just wish more people understood this – especially those closest to me. Its not easy being born intersex, going through a gender transition, dealing with a hormone deficiency, not knowing what to do with all your gifts (especially when everyone around you treats starting a life as a competition, and are under constant pressure to do what they want you to do at the expense of your own happiness and well-being), and its especially not easy taking an unconventional career and life path. Everyones experiences are different and everyone deals with them differently. There’s no one “ideal” or “right” way to deal with these things. So to anyone who has an issue on how I’ve dealt with this: that’s your problem, not mine. Deal with it.

But I’ve figured everything out. I’m on TRT and no longer are hypogonadal, I’ve (almost) made the legal transition to male, I’m now living as my true self, I now know what and who I really am, I’m advocating for my favorite computer/technology brand (Lenovo) and I’m being backed by them, I’ve met a lot of great people and made great new friends just by doing this, and I’m finally pursuing the career and life path I’ve always wanted (something I’ve been doing since 2012 – and not without drawbacks). I feel like I’ve really grown up these last few to several years. Life is good and its only going to get better.

I look forward to the future and everything it has to offer. I look forward to growing the PROJEKT61 and Eli Turner brands, showcasing my music, designs, art, and ideas to the world, and engaging in additional business ventures (among other things) and being an entrepreneur, as well as meeting new people and making new friends. There are so many things I want to do and I’m very much looking forward to that. These are not short-term, get-rich-quick type of goals, but rather they are long-term, get-rich-slowly goals, so don’t expect me to accomplish these goals overnight.

Thanks to everyone who has been so patient with me and who have been with me through all of this. I feel so lucky to have such great, supportive people around me.

P.S. I originally posted this on my personal Facebook and thought I would share this with you guys. I have also shared this on my personal Tumblr.

Malta Bans Intersex Genital Mutilation!

In early April, Malta became the first nation to ban Intersex Genital Mutilation (IGM)! This is a huge, historic victory for the intersex community and is a first step towards banning IGM worldwide. In addition to banning IGM, the law also makes transitioning easier. In this video, I give my thoughts about the new law.

Congrats to Intersex and Trans people in Malta! Hopefully other countries will follow Malta’s lead in the near future.

ThinkPad Design is Overrated (My Response to Mark Wilson)

I made a video response not so long ago to an article on Fast Company called “The ThinkPad is a Lasting, But Overrated Design” by Mark Wilson. If you’re not aware, Mark published an article about 2 weeks ago where he claims that ThinkPad design is overrated (obviously) and even bashes the TrackPoint. He even goes as far as to say that we’re “stuck in the past”, basically, and calls us “silly”.

In this video, I give him and his article the harsh criticism it rightfully deserves. I call him out on his bullshit and go on to defend ThinkPad, as well as ThinkPad lovers everywhere. I was actually supposed to upload this video about 1-2 weeks ago but I had to delay it due to some technical issues, where I had to go as far as make the video all over again from scratch (the original video I made in a day). But later late than never, right? (By the way, this happens to be my first audio-only video – at least for my personal channel.)

If you’re a ThinkPad lover, feel free to comment on his article (which can be found here) and tell him why he’s wrong. It is our job as ThinkPad lovers to defend the brand we love from ignorant, narrow-minded, clowns like Mark Wilson.

P.S. Here’s the other article mentioned in the video.

The TRT Diaries – 4 months on T

TRT method:
AndroGel 1.62% – 2 pump actuations daily (40.5 mg)

Blood test results, taken on December 19, 2014:
Hormonal profile:
Testosterone (T), Total: 1145 ng/dL (higher end of normal; excellent!)
Blood profile:
Hematocrit: 40.7 (fair)
Hemoglobin: 13.0 (low end of normal)
Blood sugar profile:
Glucose: 122 (normal for someone who’s not fasting at the time of a blood draw)
Kidney profile:
BUN: 11 (just about right)
Creatinine: 0.60 (a bit below normal)
eGFR: 141 (normal)
Metabolic profile – minerals, kidney, liver:
Sodium: 138 (normal)
Potassium: 3.8 (normal)
Chloride: 102 (normal)
CO2: 27 (higher end of normal)
Calcium: 9.3 (normal)
Protein, total: 7.7 (normal)
Albumin: 4.8 (normal)
Globulin: 2.9 (normal)
A/G Ratio: 1.7 (normal)
Bilirubin, total: 0.4 (normal)
Bilirubin, direct: 0.1 (lower end of normal)
Alk Phosph, S: 68 (normal)
AST: 32 (normal)
ALT: 60 (a bit above normal)

I’ve been on T for 4 months now and quite a bit has happened. I went to see my Endocrinologist on the 13th, and found out that my T levels have gone up a bit from the last time I had my blood drawn (which was in September). My T levels went up from 1043 to 1145. Additionally, my liver enzymes are 5 points above normal (they went up from the last time). The good news is that they’re not so high as to be concerned about my liver, but I do hope it doesn’t get really, really high and that they start to come down in the next few to several months (this is probably just my body adjusting to the TRT). If  does get to the point where they get out of control, then I will probably need to lower my dose a bit (my biggest fear is going off TRT).

My endo thought that my dosage was probably a little too strong and at one point was actually thinking about lowering the dose a bit. But I told him that I felt great, I felt fine, and that I didn’t want to lower the dose, so he didn’t. However, we will need to keep a close eye on my liver enzymes. I have my next appointment with him in mid-April and my next blood draw in either late March or the first week of April and so we’ll see what happens then.

Now, on to the other changes:

Sexual Function
Some changes have happened in the downstairs area since my last update. I can actually see my whole glans now. The foreskin on my penis can fully retract now, whereas before it only used to retract up to the mid-point of the glans. I never thought I would see this happen. I always thought that not having a cis male-looking glans – and a small glans – was something I was always going to have just because I was intersex. But 4 months on T and I now have a glans that looks just like a cis male’s. Furthermore, my sexual performance has really improved, my confidence has gone up, and my sex drive is more frequent and is very consistent. I really like what’s happening in this department. One more thing: It seems like I have gotten some minor testicular shrinkage (I noticed it earlier in the month). Shrinkage is normal for men on TRT and is only minor – it just means that your body has stopped producing LH (which is what makes the testes grow – at least most of the time).

Voice
My voice has deepened since my 1.5 month update – it really sounds significantly different from before I start T. I’m really starting to love my voice and my social confidence is increasing due to it. I’m becoming less self-conscious about it but I still have some way to go.

Facial/body hair
My facial and body hair is becoming thicker and darker, slowly over time. I’m starting to see thicker hairs on my face. I can’t wait until I’m able to grow a full beard!

Physical Profile
My weight has gone up from 97 ibs to 100 ibs! This is the first time in my life that I’ve cracked 100, I’ve never been able to do that no matter how hard I tried. My biceps and triceps seem to have grown more recently. I can see my six pack a little better now – and without putting very much effort. I either seemed to have shedded a little more fat or my abdominal muscles grew a little (it could go either way). All I know is that they need to grow some more to make them look like they really pop out. Also, I have seen a significant increase in strength since my last update (which I’m very happy about!). From the looks of it, I can go back to working out full time, but I think I’m going to wait an additional 2-3 months before I do so. I’m very happy to see that I’m finally going to be able to get the body I’ve always wanted.

Energy/mood
My energy and mood have really improved. I feel really motivated to do stuff now.

Cognition
I have seen great improvements in my cognition since my 1.5 month update. My word aphaxia has greatly improved. Doing intellectually-demanding stuff is much easier now. I no longer have to struggle with that type of work – I have more patience doing it now. Making music, designs, and other things are much funner now than before T. Learning new things is much easier now – I’m now better able to grasp material that I learn. And lastly, my social confidence keeps going up. Things are going great in this area.

Other
I have seen a modest increase in acne. I get it on my face, neck, back, chest, and upper arms – but mostly on my face.

I really love what’s happening with my body. I’m very excited to see what’s going to be happening 2 months from now (on my 6th month).

I guess that’s all for now. I’ll provide my next update probably in April (after I go see my Endocrinologist). I’m still working on my video blog version of my TRT updates. Not sure when I’ll get it completed (things are a bit hectic around here) but I’ll let you all know when I make it.

See you all next time!