The TRT Diaries – 3 years & 10 months on TRT

Its been a while since I updated this blog. I’ve just been so busy with other stuff that I haven’t had a chance to update it. But I guess it doesn’t really matter, since this is only a fun side-project, so its all good. But still, its nice to have an update or two at least every now-and-then. The good news is, the time has finally come for an update!

This time around, I’m going to be updating an existing series. That series is none other than “The TRT Diaries”. I haven’t updated this series in what seems like years (I think the last update might have been 2-3 years ago), and that’s because I haven’t had any major updates…until now. Shortly after my 1st year on TRT, things went pretty quiet. Everything settled down and so everything became pretty boring. There was really no point in updating the series if there wasn’t anything particularly new. That would’ve made me sound boring and repetitive.

For the past year, there has been something that’s been on the back of my mind. This is something that I’ve kept an eye on ever since I started my 2nd year on TRT. That something is my body hair – mainly in my face and lower abdomen. The thing that’s been bugging me about that is how slow and erratic it seems to be growing (keep in mind that I’m almost 4 years on TRT). There are some areas that have long, thick strands. Most of them, however, have thin and short strands. I’m thinking that it might be time to increase my dose.

In late February, I visited my doctor and discussed it with him, in order to get a 2nd opinion. I told him about what I was experiencing and asked him whether this is normal (like if it’s a genetic thing or something) or whether I need a higher dose. I even went without shaving since around late last year, in order to show him what I was talking about. He determined that its very much possible that I might need to increase my dose and ordered a blood panel, in order to see whether or not its appropriate and help make a diagnosis.

I’ll be seeing him again in late June. I just got my blood drawn earlier today and will be getting my results when I see him on the 27th. We’re going to be checking my:

  • Liver enzymes (in order to see if my liver is in good shape; this is important to know before increasing one’s TRT dose)
  • Kidneys (to see if they’re all good)
  • Total Testosterone (obviously)
  • DHT (this is what drives body hair growth)
  • E2 (Estradiol; very important to keep a close eye on that as well)
  • LH (in order to determine whether or not my testes have seized production…if they haven’t then that means I might need to increase my dose)
  • FSH (the fertility marker; this one’s not that important, I’m just curious to know where my fertility stands; this can also help determine testicular function)
  • Free Testosterone (this is to see if there’s enough Testosterone for my body to use)
  • SHBG (this can affect Testosterone production)
  • Vitamin D (this plays an important role in Testosterone production, plus I’ve never checked my levels before and I’m curious to see where I stand; this is something a lot of people overlook)

My T levels as they stand right now (from early last year) are about 662 (or 672). I actually registered around 300, before I made the full switch to a Primal diet and lifestyle, after 1 1/2 years on TRT (this was back in early 2016). They went up to around 600 after I fully adopted a Primal diet & lifestyle (and this happened only after about 3 months Primal). Make sure you clean up your diet & get your lifestyle in order before increasing your dose, since environmental factors play a very profound role in T production. I’ve been a year fully Primal and I’ve posted some of my best (if not my best) results.

I’m hoping that increasing my dose will also help me get rid of the fat around my breasts (which was caused by gynecomastia – a common complication of 17B-HSD Type 3 Deficiency). I can deal with the puffy nipples (they’re easier to conceal), but not the fat. The fat is annoying as fuck, makes my chest look ugly, and its harder to hide. I have to wear a compression shirt specifically made for this condition in order to properly conceal my gyno (I’m actually wearing one right now and been doing so for the past year).

I’ll be back at either the end of the month or in early July (most likely the end of the month) with the results of my blood panel. In the meantime, I’m going to try to get you all up to speed on stuff that’s been happening around here as of late. Trust me, there’s a lot that’s gone down since I last posted and there’s a lot more to come!

P.S. I’m now on Steemit. I update it on a regular basis (although I’m still trying to get into the habit), so go here and check it out!


Finding My “Car Soulmate”

When I was searching for my “car soulmate” (that is: a car that I could use on a daily basis and that was more than just car, but an extension of me as well…something that reflects my personality well), I was looking for something that had the function, utility, and clearance of a truck, as well as the space and flexibility of a minivan but with the style and utility of an SUV. Clearly, I was looking for something that was more along the lines of a truck rather than a sedan (this probably stems from the fact that I grew up riding in trucks the majority of the time). I wanted something that would fit my active lifestyle – which is more along the lines of active and utilitarian.

I wanted something that was tough and reliable, yet elegant and pleasant-looking – all weaved into a functional design. I wanted something that was simple – both in function and form. I wanted something that looked and felt like a tank and/or a muscle car (i.e. something that has that strong, tough, boxy look). I wanted something that would allow me to do the things that I loved and/or wanted to do. It took me a long ass time to realize all of this, but after I was certain about the kind of lifestyle I wanted (and, I’m not gonna lie, doing some growing up), it all became clear to me.

It took a lot of “fitting” to finally find the right car for me. After going through a lot of car models and types, I finally came across my perfect match: the Ford Econoline (a.k.a. the E-Series). The Econoline is perfect for me because it gives me ultimate flexibility. I can customize it to my heart’s content and to meet whatever my needs are at the time. It is very reliable, built like a tank, and looks great. It has a simple, but functional and elegant design, which makes it very flexible. It has a high clearance, which allows me to have a commanding view of the road (which really comes in handy when you’re a short guy) that makes me feel like I’m on top of the world (and makes me feel safer). It feels a lot more like a truck, which is great because I grew up around trucks and always wanted one. Trucks just seem to be more of my thing.

Perhaps the greatest thing about the Econoline is that it is a lot like a ThinkPad, and so that means that they also remind me a lot of my ThinkPads (if you know anything about ThinkPads then you’ll know what I’m talking about). If you take a closer look, you’ll see that the Econoline and the ThinkPad are strikingly similar. Just like a ThinkPad, an Econoline never lets its owner down, is loyal, and is a great companion (Econolines are some of the most sought-after used cars for this very reason). It also has that boxy, rugged look that ThinkPads have – and that I really love, in general  (I’m a huge fan of that type of look on things, in general. This probably stems from my decade+ love affair with ThinkPads).

I’ve always been curious and fascinated by the Econoline but it wasn’t until late last year when that curiousity finally started to really grab my attention. It wasn’t earlier this year that I finally caved into that curiousity – and I’m glad I did, because the Econoline is a great car-brand that shares a lot of characteristics with the ThinkPad brand. I just wish I would’ve done it earlier, because the van models (but not the cutaway models) have been discontinued (wish they hadn’t 😥 ), which means that I can only buy a used one. But better late than never, right?

The Econoline is my newest addiction. Its really no different from my ThinkPad and music addictions. I get a huge rush of euphoria whenever I see one. I’m really excited to get one for myself and be a proud Econoline owner.

But…I need to hustle first, in order for me to be able to get one. So my purchase will have to wait a bit – but just rest assured that it’ll happen.

I’m Getting A Sandbag!


Brute Force Heavy Hitter I sandbag (image courtesy of Brute Force).

I’m going to partake on a new challenge later this year (around summer). I’m going to get myself a sandbag for my birthday and start doing dedicated strength training and bodybuilding using sandbag training. This is something that I’ve been meaning to do forever now but haven’t had the chance to because of lack of proper equipment and because I didn’t have my diet dialed-in yet. The diet thing I’ve got under control (I’m finally fully-Primal/Paleo!) but I still have yet to get the proper equipment and that’s finally going to happen soon with the sandbag. I live in an apartment so that means I don’t have room (or money, for that matter) for traditional weights or anything like that (you know, traditional gym equipment).

A sandbag is the perfect solution to this problem – its inexpensive and its portable, so that means I can also take it with me anywhere and doesn’t take up much room. Through research, I found out that sandbag training is in a lot of ways more superior to conventional training. Sandbags help with stimulating several muscle groups at once, something that traditional weights cannot do. Its also more challenging than using traditional weights because the contents of the bag (the sand, in this case) shift around a lot and that also means that you have to use different grips – which also means a more intense workout (which is what I’m looking for). This type of workout simulates lifting heavy things in real-life, which are also variable, unlike traditional weights which are much more rigid. Sandbag training also happens to be one of the oldest (if not the oldest) form of training – before gyms and weights came along, we trained with sand.

The primary reason that I’m doing this is to build more muscle mass, and then of course, the second reason I’m doing this is to build more strength. I’ve always been a ‘smaller’ guy and I’ve always hated it. I’ve always felt insecure about it and it just doesn’t reflect my personality very well. I still have yet to fill out my shirts, in fact, I often try to avoid wearing certain types of shirts (like t-shirts) because they make me look skinnier. I’m very much looking forward to changing that. I have engaged in strength training/bodybuilding before, however, I’ve never engaged in it to this degree. The last time I did it, I used bodyweight exercises to do it. But over time, I’ve found out that they don’t really challenge me to the degree that I want. I thrive on short, intense exercises (I even have more energy afterwards) and bodyweight just doesn’t cut it. I’ve also never engaged in a dedicated long-term strength training and bodybuilding program before and so this will be my first time doing it and are also very much looking forward to making this a regular routine (I’ve done something like this but with bodyweight exercises once, but that was only for a brief amount of time).

Overall, I’m really excited to start this new challenge and build my dream body. Gaining muscle isn’t easy, it takes a lot of work (its much easier to lose weight than to gain it, especially when we’re talking about building muscle). I’ve finally got my diet dialed in, now its time to get that sandbag and get to work! I can already see myself having a great summer! (I’ll also be posting updates on my progress when I start.)

If anyone’s interested, this is the sandbag I’ll be getting. Here’s an article detailing some of the benefits of sandbag training.

Blog Update For 2/27/2017

Hey everyone, I’m back!

If you’ve been a long-time subscriber/follower of this blog, you may have noticed that I haven’t been posting very much as of late. I’ve posted some stuff last year, but last year (and the year before that) was probably my least (or at least one of my least) active year(s) on this blog. The reason for this is simple and straight-forward: I’ve been busy with my music project/career and I’ve been struggling with what direction to go with this blog…until now, that is.

Lately, I’ve been really feeling in the mood to write some more. Writing has always been one of my favorite hobbies and something that I keep getting better and better at with time. I feel like I’m writing some of my best work in recent times and I’m really enjoying it. I really, really enjoy giving my opinion on stuff on the side. One of the things I want to do this year is to write more (and yes, that also includes more music, lol).

I was planning on becoming a little more active on my personal YouTube channel and do my opinion pieces there but the lack of resources (a proper mic, space, etc.) is keeping me down, plus I’m focusing more on my music channel right now since that needs my attention more and I’m having more fun working on my music channel. Additionally, making the type of videos I want for my personal channel takes up a lot of my time since they take a lot of work to make – I spend way more time editing and recording those videos than I do with the videos for my music channel. Not to mention that YouTube seems to want to censor certain opinions on the grounds that its not “advertiser friendly” (which in my opinion is bullshit because these same advertisers place their ads on sites that report about murders, bombings, etc., for example), and then there’s the whole “YouTube Heroes” nonsense, their broken flagging system, and a few other things. With all this in mind, I figured that blogging about that stuff would be a much better idea instead, since it gives me more freedom and allows me to publish stuff much quicker.

With that said, I’m planning on starting to write more commentaries on politics & society/culture as well as technology, along with occasional life/personal updates, and a few random things every now and then. For the commentaries, I plan on doing responses, op:eds, and the like. My main motivation for the commentaries is to debunk stupidity. This stuff right here is what’s interesting me the most at the moment (besides music, obviously) and this blog has always been about writing about what’s interesting me the most at the moment, since its my personal blog – and a sort of experimental blog as well.

So this is the direction I’m planning on taking this blog on. I’m not sure where this is all going to take me. All I know is this is something I want to do to blow off steam and keep myself level-headed (especially with this shitty Trump Administration in power), but regardless of all this, I’m really excited to do this! I’m not sure how often I’m going to be doing this but I’ll try update this blog as much as I can!

9/30/2015 Update

Hey everyone! I just wanted to give you all a little update on what’s been happening with me as of recently and the direction I’m going to be heading with this blog, my personal YouTube channel, and my career.

Monday was a pretty rough day for me. As some of you might know, I had a dispute with David Pakman on Twitter when I tried to tell him that his story about Lenovo spying on its customers was false and that he needed to backtrack it. I seemed to have failed at it and it really took a toll on me. I seem to be recovering from all that nicely, but I definitely felt very burned out earlier in the week. I just felt this sense of defeat and it was unbearable.

I’ve been doing a lot of thinking and I came to the realization that maybe being a YouTube commentator full-time is not for me (at least right now). I made the decision to do this full time during the summer but things have changed now. My ordeal with Pakman made me realize this as well as a video that Mr. Repzion made earlier in the week callled “Time is Valuable“. I realized that there are simply too many stupid people on the internet these days (but particularly on YouTube, Twitter, Tumblr, and Facebook) for me and its difficult to educate them properly on stuff, debate them, ignore/dismiss them, etc. (something that Mr. Repzion mentioned in his video). Not only that but, it made me realize that music is where truly belong at (full time, of course). I see myself working in music for life (its always been that way), and I feel like I haven’t been paying enough attention to that lately (despite my new schedule). Plus, even though there are stupid people who comment on your music, its much easier to debate, ignore & dismiss them. Overall, the culture in music is more laid-back & more positive and I like that (especially when we’re talking about EDM).

My little ordeal is similar to the one that pro motocrosser Chad Reed went through recently: after realizing that he couldn’t handle being both a team owner full time and a rider full time, he made the hard decision to close down his team and is returning to being only a full time rider for another team (at this time, he is either still searching for a team, or he has found one but can’t reveal the details just yet). I, on the other hand, came to the realization that I couldn’t be a music producer/audio engineer/DJ/songwriter/recording artist full time and be a YouTube commentator full time. PROJEKT61 is still in its infancy, I have huge plans for it, and it needs all the attention it can get (especially since I’m either at a place or almost at a place where I can finally keep up with the heavyweights – something that I’ve been working on for 5 years). If I want to become a highly respected, highly sought-after artist, then I need to focus more on that as I still have a long way to go (just like Chad Reed wants to try to win another championship and therefore has to focus on that as much as possible).

I love commenting on stuff – I’m highly opinionated – but I just can’t do it as a full time job (at least not at this time) because I have other things to tend to. People seem to expect a channel to be focused on one type of thing – they don’t want it to be scattered. The expectations that come from being that type of YouTuber are just too much for me to handle (long time YouTubers like Mr. Repzion and Dave from seem to be feeling burnt out from that). Sorry to burst your bubble but that’s not my thing (and it doesn’t seem to be Mr. Repzion’s thing either). I originally created this channel to be experimental (just like this blog) and therefore its going to be scattered, and its going to stay that way (it is my personal channel, after all). If you want more focus and consistency, then go over to the PROJEKT61 channel since that’s only focused one thing and that is music. So if you love music, EDM, and bass music go over to that channel (I haven’t uploaded much over there but expect more from there soon).

So with that said, my personal YouTube channel will become my side-project again – it will become my hobby and part-time gig again, where I will post whenever I have time or whenever I feel like it – while the PROJEKT61 channel will become my main channel. I will be working on growing that channel more, and growing the brand as a whole (again, I have big plans for it). Obviously, I’m still a YouTuber, but with different priorities now. I’m still planing to go to VidCon but mostly for PROJEKT61 (I want to meet up with other musicians on YouTube & get some more networking and business tips). Overall, its full-steam ahead for PROJEKT61. I can change my plans/mind at anytime but that’s my plan for now. I need to do what feels right for me and I need to do what makes me really happy. In fact, ever since I made this decision, I’ve seen a big improvement in my happiness.

I’ve learned a lot from being a YouTube commentator (including learning more about myself) and I have really improved my skills in regards to commentating on stuff. Obviously, I’m still going to do commentaries on YouTube but its not going to be a full time thing. I know I haven’t been putting out a lot of fully written content on this blog and that’s because I felt quite a bit of writer’s block and I just didn’t know what was I going to do with this blog next (I have an easier time saying things as they come as opposed to just sitting down and writing them). But I think that making videos has helped me re-ignite that fire. I seem to feel motivated to write again. So with that said, expect me to publish more blogs in here again very soon! (Which is great because I have so much to say at time but don’t always have room around here to record.) Its obviously going to be a part-time/hobby sort of thing (like with my personal YT), which means that I’m only going to post when I have time and/or whenever I feel like it, but I’m going to do it. I might even be turning select posts in here into vlogs/podcasts so you can listen to them on-the-go, or while doing something else in general. They’re going to be sort of like audiobooks except that they’ll sound more ‘natural’.

I’ll catch you all tomorrow with a post about my Twitter scuffle with David Pakman, and ethics in journalism!

The TRT Diaries: 1 Year on T

Its been a year since I started Testosterone Replacement Therapy (TRT) and I’ve seen plenty of changes since then. I can happily say that things have really turned around for the better for me since last summer, when I was truly suffering from those Low Testosterone (Low T) symptoms. In this video, I go over some of the most prominent changes while on T – all from an intersex guy’s perspective.

Click here to catch up or get a re-cap on all my other ‘TRT diaries’ entries!

[Vlog] My package got lost in the mail! (Thanks USPS!)

Here’s a vlog were I discuss my recent bad experience with USPS. If you’ve been following my Tumblr closely as of late, then you’ll know that its about the lost package that contained my FreeToM prosthetic.

P.S. There was actually no pun intended when I came up with the title, even though it seems like it…it just happened to come out that way :D. Feel free to laugh if you want!

P.P.S. I recently decided to do YouTube full-time (so it will be my full-time job along with music from now on), so expect to see content more frequently! (I’ll do my best with the space constraints I have right now.)